Okay. Welcome to my crazy. So yesterday I was at the library, and kept thinking that I should step into the parking lot and have a lil smoke catch a lil high. But, I was on a computer with a timer and people were circling waiting for an open machine so i couldn't leave - yet the thought of going to have a smoke kept coming up and then it hit me. I am obsessing and it is inhibiting my focus on what I am learning. So I immediately opened my Google Doc and wrote something down which may resonate with some of you - if it does, pursue if you wish. Staying continuously stoned is Service to Self ([HASHTAG]#STS[/HASHTAG]) and obsessive. [HASHTAG]#Obsession[/HASHTAG] blocks the acquiring of [HASHTAG]#knowledge[/HASHTAG], and [HASHTAG]#KnowledgeProtects[/HASHTAG]. Obsessive behavior typifies what is STS, an inhibitor of knowledge except when there is a specific need to know/learn something for furthering and achievement of STS pursuits. This leaves you vulnerable to attack by the vicissitudes of life. When you choose Service to Others ([HASHTAG]#STO[/HASHTAG]) over Service to Self you recognize when these attacks occur and you make your decisions in accordance with the Service to Others path and decide with your heart, not ‘emotional-chemical’ heart but the place in you where your soul honors their soul, the light, love, beauty & peace within each of us. And equally important, recognizing STS behavior allows you to avoid making decisions that create Karmic Debt, because as long as you have karmic debt you have lessons to learn. The more lessons you learn the further along the path of enlightenment you move. So, bottom line, no more smoking weed all day. A 27 year lesson in the learning. Ouch.